cancer. it's a word we all hear way too much these days. it's a word that people can't understand until it hits home. until it's a loved one saying "i have cancer". it's a word that has literally brought me to my knees, weeping, and asking God for answers and understanding.
just over a week ago one of my dearest friends---a kindred spirit kinda friend---told me that she had just been diagnosed with melanoma cancer. stage two. hearing those words....i couldn't breathe. i know people say that but i truly couldn't catch my breath. i sat on the arm of my chair gasping for air. and then the uncontrollable tears began to flow as i spoke with her over the phone. i could feel the pain, the fear, and the anger in her voice. all i wanted to do was to take it away. i am a fixer. it's in my nature to do whatever i can to make things better. i can't fix this. we are 867.20s mile apart. i can't even hug her.
after we got off the phone i had to share the news with my husband. i told him how helpless i feel. and how frustrated i am that i can't fix this. i can't take this away from her. nothing i can do will make this better or easier. he quickly told me i was wrong. that there IS something i can do. and reminded me how simple the answer was. pray. prayer has power. prayer has a way of cancelling out 867.20 miles. prayer has a way of wrapping my arms around her and hugging her.
my friend; you know who you are. i am on my knees in prayer for you. when you feel a sudden sense of peace, know it's me praying for you (it's me hugging you from 867.20 miles away!!) i have said this before and i will say it again. i believe in a God who is a healer. and he loves you. he loves you more than I love you! and he wants to give us the desires of our hearts. the desire of my heart is to hear "cancer-free". and i will stand in the gap for you my friend until we hear those words.
cancer is a scary word...but my God is BIGGER than cancer. my God can make the lame walk, the dead rise, the barren with child. my God can, has, and WILL heal. I believe it with all my heart.